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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 05:49

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I will be 64.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My family never makes their pension either.

Are there girls here who like group sex?

It was going to be , some day.

I think the readers, may guess!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Who then, do I blame.?

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I said to her

So, i spoilt her more .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I couldn’t, believe it.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

This is soul school!.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We all went to grammer schools

What is it like to have an insanely beautiful girlfriend?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

What could be the result if I block a covert narc back after he said blocks were going back up, maybe we try this again?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Do women really cheat more than men?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But ive been too sick for many years..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I write beautiful poetry .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But, we were locked up after school.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She married twice! .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

And i lived it daily.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

One cannot live in the past .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Put me off passion for life!!

Was to survive, this bastard.

All the time i was locked up.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was scared of men, in general

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Im still living with it.

He knew the spot.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Would this be the day?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I have no regrets .

What did i know ?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I waited trembling.

My life is so biszare .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I never cut or harmed myself..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I was 9 years of age.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But it wasn’t much.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She wouldn,t have been !

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I could never make a relationship work though!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

So whats the point in blame.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She found it foreign!.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I was very sick at this time too.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I don,t even have a pension.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Comes on , in middle age.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Ive learnt so much.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I was seconnd youngest,

She loved him until the end.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He resisted the act ,that day.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

When she asked me how she looked .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

We were not on the streets..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She was in good health!

(And it was in our own minds.)